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Random Thoughts

Sometimes I wonder why people do the things they do...then I realize it doesn't matter. What matters is how I react or don't to it.

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What would you do when you have the chance to make your wildest fantasy become reality? Do you jump in with both eyes closed? Do you take this chance to do something that you have only dreamed about? Do you allow yourself to be free, uninhibited, and spontaneous? Do you live in the moment? Or do you walk away leaving a trail of regret, what ifs, and disappointment?

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I think when you get married, you should be required to wear something visible and non removable to let the world know you are married. I heard someone say once if a married man is going to cheat he should make sure the woman is single. WTF!!! (Excuse my language) but I don’t want a trifling man and married one is definitely a NO for me.

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Can you blame it on the alcohol if you are not drunk? Are there rules for that? I mean what if I only had one drink or what if I had the drink yesterday? What if I skip the drink but you don’t know it? I could pretend and say and do what’s on my mind.

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Why do people lie for no reason? I mean I didn’t ask for it I was minding my own business, going about my way. I didn’t solicit. You could have kept that one to yourself. Sometimes I think people talk just to hear the sound of their own voice.

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I have become a marriage counselor to a married friend. I’m single never married. Hmmm, isn’t that an oxymoron. I think I have missed my calling. I talked him off the ledge and back on track.

I’m In Love with a Woman

I’m in love with a woman
She is beautiful and kind
With the biggest heart you will ever find


If you try to mistreat her
You will have to deal with my wrath
So if that is your intent don’t cross her path


She’s has an inner strength
That has carried her through many trials
She appears meek, but when pushed can get hostile


Perfection is not her claim
She has her flaws and I love them all
If I need reassurance, she is the one I call


She treats me well
Even when I abuse and misuse her name
She takes it in stride and takes the blame


This journey to self love
Has not been an easy one to achieve
For as a child I was not lead to believe


I am in love with a woman
And to my delight she loves me too
Together we could love you.

An Untitled Musing

It's all consuming

It's overwhelming
It's overpowering.
It's undeniable
It's frustrating
It's fulfilling
It's heart-wrenching
It's soul stirring

It's heartbreaking

It's frightening

It's depressing
It's intense
It's lonely

It's empty

It's conflicting

It's....

What am I gonna do?

How can I deny it?

How can I accept?
How can I live with it?
How can I not?

My Ode to G

Good Morning. Baby U Are My Soul Mate I was Made to Love Ya.
You are the epitome of my Definition of a Man.
I used to Dream with No Love until you came along.
You Make My Day when you Smile for Me.
Baby Hold on to Me because you are the Wind Beneath My Wings.
That's the Way I Feel about You. I'm Hurting for You
These Strings, Strings are causing me Misery.
I've thought about you. How Many Times? over One Million Times

Got Love for me? Please Don't Take It Away.
It's Breaking My Heart Thinkin' Bout It.
Hugs & Kisses is what I need from you.
You Ought to be with Me I don't want Closure.
I want Forever You &  Me. I Wanna Get Up with You
Everyday for the Rest of Your Life To My Grave.
I'd Give Anything to have you Callin' Me on my Private Line again.
Last Time I Saw You at The G Spot Oh What a Night!
When the DJ Played Our Song and you held me in your arms,
I thought Is This the Way to Heaven?

All That Matters is You're a Keeper and I want to be Close to You.
I'm Saving Your Place. Don't Make Me Beg.
You Need Love and I can Show You How to Love.
Where Do We Go from here? Didn't We go as Deep As It Goes?
It Was What It Was, but I'm Already Missing You.
Since You Ain't Around My Heart Don't beat the same.
Meet me Same Place, Same Time on Love Street.
Let's Fall Back Taking Everything For the Love of Just Us.
What Cha' Think About That?
Our Second Time Around will be Sweeter Awesome.

My ode to Gerald Levert. He was #1 and truly Mr. Too Damn Good.

Sometimes

Sometimes I cry alone at night
Sometimes I hurt from the pains of my past
Sometimes I forget and think maybe it wasn't so bad
Sometimes I feel like I can't go on
Sometimes doesn't last always


Sometimes I want it all to end
Sometimes I curse and swear
Sometimes I want to be judge, jury and executioner
Sometimes I remember
Sometimes is temporary and fleeting


Sometimes I sing even if off-key
Sometimes I laugh out loud at a memory
Sometimes I dance to beat of the music but not always
Sometimes I fall but I always get up
Sometimes is just a moment in my life.

I Walked

I posted that I was at a loss for words to describe my feelings after the Out of Darkness Community Walk benefiting the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. I was overwhelmed and need to release.


GREAT WONDERFUL AMAZING BLESSED
Doesn’t begin to describe it!!!


I don’t believe in happenstance or coincidence.
I am a believer that all things happen for a reason
Sometimes the reason is beyond us and
Sometimes it is evident right away when things are revealed
I get excited and can only glory in the workings of God
I am fellowshipping at a new church and joined a life group - F4TK (Fit for the King)
It was an easy choice to make where others I am still praying over
I exercise 4-5 times a week alone at the back of the pool
This group gives me a chance to fellowship with others
And work on my physical and spiritual self at the same time
When our leader announced our first event would be a charity walk
I was hesitant to participate, full of questions and doubts
Would I be able to do it, should I just donate my money
Could I make it to the end, would I look foolish
In the end I decided that this was no coincidence
The meaning behind the walk was too dear to me
I prayed for strength and registered and trusted that I could do it
I was the first to make it to the meeting place
One by one everyone arrived and new people were placed in my circle
Before the walk we got honor beads to symbolize our personal connection to the cause
I got two but didn’t realize there was one for personally struggled
So though I wore one for sibling, one for friend, I was remiss for another
A father spoke of his son and the ignorance that’s involved in this struggle
The ignorance - not from those who leave this world in this fashion
But from those left behind. The not knowing that someone needs helps
That a person near and dear to you is at an invisible breaking point
We must speak out and share with others in hope that we can prevent
This tragic heartbreaking life altering event from happening
The entire experience was refreshing, overwhelming and inspiring.
I am ready to share my story, my pain, and healing
So with my beads symbolizing those who have chosen this path - I walked
I walked for my sister whom I loved with all my heart
For the girl who abused and neglected by many in her life
I walked for the friend who decided the world was too much to bear
I walked the for the little girl who almost didn’t make it through her teens
I walked for the woman I am today - stronger, loving, and beautiful.